Feet officially up.........I'm officially bored!

Well today has been the first day of my maternity leave and I've been looking forward to this for weeks.  I've not able to wait until I can sleep in, take it easy and catch up on daytime time.  It's been great for the first 2 1/2 hours and now I'm totally bored.

My day started as usual as I got me and Holly up and we went through the usual routine of getting her ready and off to nursery.  I came back home and got a load of washing on, sorted out some ironing and put the pots away.  With first of my little jobs done I made myself some toast and a cuppa and plonked myself on the sofa to watch Jeremy Kyle.  By the end of the show I felt utterly miserable and decided this was not how the rest of my maternity was going to be spent.

I decided to go for a walk and get a breath of air and no sooner had I put my shoes on but the heavens opened.  I didn't let the rain dampen my spirits too much and cracked on with the baby's play mat.  My back started to hurt after and hour or so, so I packed the stuff away and tried for another walk.  Not happening as still tipping it down!!

Lets see if I can catch an afternoon film or something I thought to myself....not a chance.  I never really understood how god awful day time T.V is.  301 channels to chose from and it is all utter rubbish.

Then came a knock at the door and it turned out to be a Jehovah's witness and I was delighted to have someone to chat to.  I kept him talking when the poor sod only wanted to deliver a magazine but I think he didn't have the heart to make his excuses and just let me ramble on.  It was the rain who set him free as he quickly made a dash for it when the heavens opened.

I only have half an hour before I need to pick my little lady up and it is the thing I'm looking forward to the most....bring on the chaos!

xx

I must've looked a right miserable cow!

Walking home from work last night I was feeling tired as I made my way through the park and up the hill.  When I got to the top of the hill I was sweating like a pig on a spit roast and and my bags felt like they weighed a tonne.  When I got to the top of the hill there was a fella standing there with his dog and he said to me, "smile love, it's not that bad".

My first instinct was to turn round and say, "actually mate it is that bad.  I've just got divorced, about to be a single mum to 2 kids, just been told I've lost my job and I'm skint that I've had to start wearing some of my dead mother's tops"  As you can tell I would have happily regaled the entire tragedy that is my life to him at that moment.  As I walked up the street to my car though I started thinking, actually I do have lots to smile about and I came up with the following:-

I'm divorced because married life was not working for either of us and I've actually now got a better relationship with my ex than we've had for years.  I no longer have to pick up after him or nag him to do things and on the whole my life is more peaceful since we separated.

Being a single mum, not the ideal, but do you know what, I can't help but smile when I think of my kids.  My kids are my world so what on earth do I have to be miserable about?  The best part of my day is leaving work to go and pick Holly up and I look forward to the daft conversations we will have in the car on the way home.

The fact that my job is not being funded has actually been a kick up the ass to start my own business.  It will be something I love to do and that I can fit around the family so it's a new challenge and I say bring it on.

Wearing my mum's clothes!  This makes me giggle as I can hear her cursing me from the heavens for not folding or hanging it properly and the best thing about it............it has her smell and feels like she's still with me.

So yes, I really do have a lot to smile about :)

Suz xxx