Thursday, 28 July 2011

I must've looked a right miserable cow!

Walking home from work last night I was feeling tired as I made my way through the park and up the hill.  When I got to the top of the hill I was sweating like a pig on a spit roast and and my bags felt like they weighed a tonne.  When I got to the top of the hill there was a fella standing there with his dog and he said to me, "smile love, it's not that bad".

My first instinct was to turn round and say, "actually mate it is that bad.  I've just got divorced, about to be a single mum to 2 kids, just been told I've lost my job and I'm skint that I've had to start wearing some of my dead mother's tops"  As you can tell I would have happily regaled the entire tragedy that is my life to him at that moment.  As I walked up the street to my car though I started thinking, actually I do have lots to smile about and I came up with the following:-

I'm divorced because married life was not working for either of us and I've actually now got a better relationship with my ex than we've had for years.  I no longer have to pick up after him or nag him to do things and on the whole my life is more peaceful since we separated.

Being a single mum, not the ideal, but do you know what, I can't help but smile when I think of my kids.  My kids are my world so what on earth do I have to be miserable about?  The best part of my day is leaving work to go and pick Holly up and I look forward to the daft conversations we will have in the car on the way home.

The fact that my job is not being funded has actually been a kick up the ass to start my own business.  It will be something I love to do and that I can fit around the family so it's a new challenge and I say bring it on.

Wearing my mum's clothes!  This makes me giggle as I can hear her cursing me from the heavens for not folding or hanging it properly and the best thing about it............it has her smell and feels like she's still with me.

So yes, I really do have a lot to smile about :)

Suz xxx

1 comment:

Old Fashioned Susie said...

Cor blimey! With all that's going on with you, you've got no choice but to laugh otherwise you'd cry or go mad or both! Good luck with the business!